Another birthday has now passed, and I can’t help but be struck by the enormous different in how I feel from last year to this one. It’s as vast as an ocean. Everyone always said that this grief I feel would get better, more manageable as time went on. And it has. That I’ve journeyed […]

I wanted to share my photos of the memorial set up in Boston’s Copley Square where the recent bombing tragically killed 3, and injured over 170 people. And so senselessly, so senselessly. I’m sure it seems to you, too, that – to kill innocent people (children included) to get attention, to supposedly further a cause, […]

  Beauty n. 1) The quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties as harmony of form or color, excellence of artistry, truthfulness, and originality. I thought I was immune to betrayals, and hurtful actions after my husband died. With the exception of a very few people, I […]

                Yes, you can change things. Look at the bill that we (those at Pancreatic Cancer Action Network, key Senators and Representatives, and thousands of other advocates) worked tirelessly to get passed – The Recalcitrant Cancer Research Act.  When we were lobbying it in Washington DC, we were […]

I’m feeling so much stronger. In all honesty, nothing’s that different in my life, but I view it differently. I guess it comes down to a matter of perception. Our lives are just like a mirror, reflecting back what’s going on with us. And for me right now, I’m feeling like I can actually affect […]

I’ve been doing quite a few speaking engagements. I laugh about the fact that most people when they speak get to talk about empowerment issues, i.e. making money, getting ahead in life, rah-rah motivational issues. Me? I get the really fun stuff – death, and loss. People think that talking about these subject matters must […]

I’m thinking that I should talk about the holidays, but what I’m more interested in is – the Mayan Calendar, and the fact that this 5,125 year-old calendar has just come to an end!   There are people that thought the world might come to an end as this ancient calendar finished. And I have […]

There are times I am feeling soooo good, I’m thinking – I’m so over it!!! So over the pain, the grief, depression. It’s kinda like I’m that dancing figure online. You know, the one in the advertisement where they just got some great!! financing!!, or something, and the figure repeats the same happy-dance-move over and […]

I took this photo with this guy at Philadelphia’s PURPLESTRIDE, a Walk/Run to fight Pancreatic Cancer, a couple weeks ago. I like to call him – “My Pancreatic Hugger Mugger” Or how about… “My Purple Pancreatic Mugger Brother” Or… “My Mugger From Another Mother”   Actually, my wonderful Mugger Brother carried a sign – “Team […]

As the Willie Nelson song says, I’m “On the road again.” And where am I now? In Austin, Texas for Formula I Race weekend. I keep surprising myself. Seems like I have such a different life from what I had before. Now, wait a minute – I do have a much different life than I […]